It’s been awhile since I’ve written a post on motherhood, and it’s usually in these times of quiet that I find myself struggling. Who am I to write about parenting when many days I go to bed feeling defeated. For just when I tell you what works for me, it turns around and backfires.
I think as mom’s it’s only natural to be your own toughest critic. Between the way we were raised, religious beliefs, and our direct sphere of influence, we are constantly second guessing ourselves as parents.
Some days I pat myself on the back because I rocked it. And there’s other days (like today) where I call my mom and just cry. It’s therapy you guys.
So I’m 30 years old and still need pep talks from my parents… but the truth is that I am constantly learning. I grow into myself as a Mom every day and find what works and what doesn’t. I have learned that routine and consistency make our lives ALOT easier and easing up on those things because it’s summer wasn’t my greatest idea. I’ve also learned how to look for cues that may lead to melt downs and try and detear her from conflict with any chance I get. She’s missed her nap and is overly tired? Probably not the best day to have a play date at a friends house.
Play dates have been cancelled, dinners out have been cut short, things have been taken away, time outs have been had.
I raised my voice and lost my patience. I was the mom chasing her kid down the mall last week…and I hate it.
I’m doing my best and striving for better all at the same time.
“You are doing this parenting thing on your own Lindsay, and it’s hard”. “You are an amazing mom and it’s all going to pay off one day”.
Thank God for parents. I’ll never be to old for their pep talks. And being able to put my trust into their parenting wisdom is truly priceless. I am so grateful for the work they did on my sister and I’s lives and I strive to take pieces of that into my parenting technique with Landyn.
And even though my parents constantly build me up, I will never let my single parenting be a crutch for any of it. I am being stretched right now but this tough season will pass and I’ll welcome the next with open arms. Parenthood is so beautiful you guys.
How was your weekend?
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