Many of us struggle with it.
That nagging desire to seek the approval of others.
Weather it be the clothes we wear, the homes we live in, the decisions we make.
It’s in our hearts desire to be accepted.
In grade school, I remember NEEDING Vans shoes in order to feel cool.
In High School, acceptance belonged to the most beautiful or the straight A student.
I remember being SO jealous of my best friend at the time, who was a model.
She was perfect in my eyes…tan skin, 5’10, thin, perfect complexion.
Why couldn’t I be just like her? I would have it MADE!
In college, I understood acceptance to be in the form of a relationship…
a recipe for disaster…
I eventually grew out of that and learned that acceptance is best understood from within.
Acceptance in HIM is the only way to do things. You will NEVER be let down.
I have seen myself go full circle.
Just last week, I found myself justifying a purchase of tan and coral wedges for spring because they are “in” this season.
What more affirmation does one need?
I will definitely have it going on this season…
Acceptance for me though, doesn’t just come in the form of material things.
Lately, I have found myself questioning the decisions I am making.
Craving the approval of others.
Before I make a decision, I need to get 38699 other opinions.
I am looking for acceptance.
I never thought in a million years, I’d be almost 30 years old still craving the approval of others….
Is it human instinct or lack of confidence?
Is it that at certain seasons in our lives, we are more confident than others?
Just last night, I was reading Landyn a bed time story, where the running theme was acceptance.
That key word, isn’t taught at an early age for nothing.
I strive to accept ME for ME and ignore the voices of inadequacy.
These feelings are EXHAUSTING, darn it.
Trust myself just a little more…
Follow my hearts desires.