Landyn’s first day of Kindergarten

The night before Kindergarten, nerves are high. “Im nervous for kindergarten Mommy”, was on repeat. She even went as far as to bust out her writing notebook and favorite pencil to practice her letters one last time before bed. We read one extra story, sang one more song, and snuck in one extra hug. It’s funny how rules are bent and bedtimes are prolonged when emotions are high. Nostalgia tugs at your heart strings and you would freeze time if you could.

IMG_6526snuggle person pillow c/o Love Mich Collection

IMG_6640backpack: Pottery Barn Kids // boots c/o Minnetonka Moccasins

IMG_6642Landyn’s dress: Gap Kids

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Day one was a success. She walked out to the pick up line hand in hand with a new friend. It was as if my heart was handed back over, wrapped up in a blanket. Seeing her smile and beam with pride and confidence makes it all worth it.

I’m so excited for my big girl.

Approaching our first day of Kindergarden..

They say it all goes so fast. You blink and your baby is off to kindergarden. Before you know it your sending them off to college, and watching them walk down the aisle.

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Landyn’s dress c/o Runaway Pony

August 5, 2009 seems like yesterday. A point in time when kindergarden seemed like some far off dream. And now the time has come to let my little girl spread her wings. I’ve been thinking about it for the past few months, trying to let it soak in. Trying to figure out just what sending my only child off to kindergarden means to me.

For me, it’s giving your heart to someone else to protect. It’s sharing your creation of blood, sweat, and tears of the past 5 years and hoping they are gentle with it. You hope that innocence is protected, love is fostered, influences are positive, and hearts are spoken to. You hope creativity is encouraged and this little bit of independence grows them.

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Landyn knows things are about to be different. We are branching out from her private preschool that was her comfort zone for the past 3 years. But change is good. She needs it. I need it. There’s already been tears and nervous feelings, and I’m sure Wednesday I will be a teary mess, but that’s what we do. I’m trying to keep my feelings inside and only speak happy things about this transition. Landyn knows that she’s always going to be okay. She knows she’s always safe and taken care of and that security and confidence is what are kids need most. Landyn knows when that bell rings everyday, I will be at the gate waiting for her. She knows she can expect to talk about her day and we will always be her guidance when problems arise.

Does this motherhood thing ever get easier?

Here’s to a successful school year full of new beginnings and growth.

Happy 5th Birthday Landyn Noella

5 years ago today, I became a momma to the most perfect baby girl.

5 years ago today my life was forever changed as I began wearing my heart outside my body.

5 years ago today, my purpose in life finally became clear and never again would I know life without her in it.

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 It’s been 5 years of pure joy because she is all mine. For better or worse we have made it through.

Happy 5th birthday Landyn Noella.

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You are strong willed like your Dad, yet sensitive like your Mommy.

You are a natural creator, imaginative, gentle, and bright.

You rule the roost around here, and love those puppies of yours big.

You are inquisitive beyond your years… Your brain is always moving.

You’d prefer a new outfit to toys, and laundry day and shopping are your favorite.

You LOVE our Joshy way more than I ever expected, and it warms my heart to see that relationship grow.

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Your Mimi, Pop Pops, and Aunt G are your whole world as is all your family. You have so many to love.

You love play dates, bagels for breakfast, dancing, and country music.

You want so badly to be a big sister, and I just know you will own that role.

You stretch me in ways I never thought possible and I am thankful for that.

I love you big girl. Kindergarden here we come.

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xoxo

Mommy

We are ENGAGED!!

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My week took a VERY unexpected turn.

Thursday afternoon, Josh took me to lunch in Malibu where our story first began. The spot of our first date, where we shared our first kiss. He got down on one knee, got as sappy as I’ve ever seen him, and with four words, gave me my happily ever after. I knew from the first time we met, he was different from the rest, and with time proved that our gut doesn’t lie.

Josh is my forever and I am so excited to announce that we are ENGAGED!!

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The past 4 days have been a complete whirlwind. Life has come to a hault as I let it all sink in. I’m soaking up every feeling, every touch, every word of love and encouragement. I am on a high and I never want it to end.

 I’m engaged to a man that makes me a better version of myself. A man that stretches me to be better, challenges me, loves me unconditionally, and most importantly loves my daughter like his own.

I came across this post today, when I first introduced you to Josh, and my words couldn’t be more spot on from the start:

“I’ll never forget our first date…The minute our eyes met as I walked towards him standing up against his truck to greet me. The smile he flashed me. Our first hug and me realizing how attractive 6’3″ is. The smell of his cologne. The black peacoat he wore to impress me with his sense of style that I haven’t seen since. Him opening the car door for me, and every door there after. Effortless conversation. The way he made me laugh. The way he looked at me. The way his hand fit perfectly in mine. Our first kiss”.

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I’m on cloud nine.

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Landyn came home from a week away at her Dad’s and Josh and I knew exactly how we wanted to share the news with her. Josh gifted her with a special pearl necklace and asked her permission to marry “Mommy”. She of course answered with “YES, I want a sister”. She followed it up with a “Joshy is the best, we love him” and the biggest hug and kiss her little body could give him. My heart became mush and just like that, the past 5 years became clear as day.

It feels so good to be in it for the right reasons. To do things the way I always envisioned for my life. I get the opportunity to have my Dad walk me down the aisle for the first time and ball my eyes out as we have our father/daughter dance. To have my best friends and my sister as my bridesmaids and dress shop with my Mom. To be surrounded by 100 of our closest friends and family as we promise each other ‘till death do us part. And to have my baby girl by my side through it all. It feels good.

I’ve waited a long time for this and I am thanking GOD for the detour life gave me. I finally got it right.

Thank you all for your love and encouragement across the social media board this past weekend. We have read every single comment and from the bottom of our hearts, thank you.

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Let the wedding planning begin!!!

I love you Josh Baltimore. I can’t wait to become your wife.