How Yoga Changed my Life

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I’m not a gym going kind of girl. Besides hearing the phrase “it goes by so fast”, one of the phrases I hear quite often as a Mom is “how do you stay so fit”. I always smile graciously and credit it to living a healthy lifestyle, but for me personally I think it comes down to genes. Thanks Mom and Dad. I enjoy my sweets and I drink entirely too much Diet Pepsi. Hey, I’m working on it.

With that being said, I am not out trying to loose weight. Sure I’d love to tone and there is ALWAYS room for improvement, but the gym is practically torture for me. I’ve learned over the past few months though, that breathing and exercise are two of the best ways to combat anxiety. I remembering rolling my eyes and expecting some sort of quick fix when my therapist told me that for the first time. I wondered why I came into her office each week not seeing improvement… I wasn’t doing my part.

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I noticed a friend of mine going to YogaWorks near my house, so I started to do some research. The more I investigated, the more I realized that Yoga was EXACTLY what I needed. Meditation, relaxation, getting in touch with your inner self, working on strength and balance, staying committed to myself, and most importantly, breathing.

I went down to the studio and signed up immediately. It’s been a game changer you guys. With the hustle and bustle of everyday life, taking time out of my day to meditate and do some deep breathing was just not in my cards. I needed to be put in that zen like atmosphere where it was practically forced for me to get to that place. When I walk in that studio, I am able to close the door on the stresses of the outside world and just focus on me. It’s therapy.

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The world isn’t easy. We are all fighting a hard battle. No matter where your struggles lie, know that there is something out there to help combat it. I have felt so alone in my anxiety for YEARS, but the more I find ways to work through it, the more I learn about myself in the process. I know what works for me and what doesn’t. I know the big things to avoid and the little ones too. I am more opt to speak my mind and deal with problems as they arise which has been huge for me. I started making a gratitude journal that I write in daily of all the things I am thankful for. Positive self thoughts make all the difference. I even got Landyn involved in yoga. My yoga studio has family yoga where your kids come and learn the fundamentals. Landyn busts out the downward dog position like its her job. Had I known at a young age how to really BREATHE, a lot of my anxiety would have been alleviated. A calm mommy is a calm child. It’s SO important. If you can’t get into a Yoga studio, do breathing exercises at home. Watch uTube videos, get a group of friends together and form your own group at the park. Work with what you have.

I tell you this because I believe there needs to be more knowledge on natural ways to combat anxious feelings. I am a work in progress and still have anxious days, but I take them as they come. It’s a one day at a time deal. Take them as they come.

Are there any other Yogi’s out there? I would love to hear from you.

 

Anxiety and fear

Do you ever find that life comes in waves? As though it’s a continuous flow of circumstances that is ever changing. It’s good times and bad, lessons, experiences, triumphs.  It’s never knowing what tomorrow will hold. These waves last for a period of time, and then slip away. The tide changes and whole new wave crashes up to shore.

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I haven’t gotten very personal about my struggle with anxiety for awhile but it’s definitely something that I still battle. For me it’s something that comes and goes depending on the current. I read this post last week and it really put into perspective my tendency to hide from my anxiety because sometimes facing it is to painful. My pride gets in the way and as a momma, we never want to appear weak. We always want to appear as though we have it all figured out but the reality is sometimes we don’t and that is perfectly okay.

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Our minds are a powerful thing. We can convince ourselves of pretty much anything. I go through times when I worry about my health and that of those around me. I think about death and imagining my life without the rocks in my life. I worry about car accidents, and Josh flying for business, and being home alone. I think about Landyn and if she’d be ok if something were to ever happen to me… my mind goes there.

Yesterday my mom and I drove down to see my sister and I just laid it all on her. My fears, my struggles, my dreams. I shared with her my goals for tomorrow and where I see myself in 6 months, a year, 5 years from now. She first told me that I was smart because I was thinking ahead and being cautious, but then she reminded me to “let it all go because worrying doesn’t change the outcome”.

Let it all go Lindsay.

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 There is still so many things I want to accomplish in this life. I don’t want to be afraid to take risks. I want to grow my family and build my life around what matters most. I want to be a wife, a mom, a daughter, a sister, a friend and forever protect everyone in my circle. But the reality is somethings are out of my control. What is in my control is living in joy and finding outlets and ways of dealing with my fear and anxiety. It’s a work in progress you guys. It’s a battle between me and my brain and not allowing myself to go there. It’s trusting the process, knowing the tides are ever changing, and being able to smack fear dead in the face.

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“Every day we experience the uncertainty, risks, and emotional exposure that define what it means to be vulnerable, or to dare greatly. Whether the arena is a new relationship, an important meeting, our creative process, or a difficult family conversation, we must find the courage to walk into vulnerability and engage with our whole hearts”. –Brene Brown, Daring Greatly

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