Generally speaking, Landyn goes to her Dad’s every other weekend. And while 4 days apart a month doesn’t seem like much, it’s really hard on me.
The night’s leading up to the exchange I have knots in my stomach. I find myself pushing bedtime a little bit later so I can read her one more story or sing her one more song. I peek in on her sleeping two times, instead of one. The morning of drags and the conversation is always how much we are going to miss each other. It breaks my heart really. But like I tell Landyn, we have to share.
I try my best to spend my weekends alone dedicated to work and spending alone time with Josh. No more, no less. It’s so easy to get side tracked when your alone time is far and few between. But what I have come to realize is my time away from Landyn and the heavy heart that comes with it is a control thing. Not knowing where she is, or who she is with. If she’s in bed at her bedtime and if they sang her favorite bedtime songs. Open hands Lindsay.
So with that being said, I am going to wrap up this post and get a jump start on my weekend. We’ve been having some gorgeous weather here in California so I think the beach is in the cards this weekend. Happy thoughts!
Have a great weekend.